Jesus! the more you give me suffering, the more I love you!

Praised be the Sacred Heart of Jesus! Now and forever!!!

The title was the prayer I offered over and over the whole day (June 14, 2006). You may recall that we were requesting your valuable prayers for my wife Mini and our unborn two months back. You all have offered much prayers. Thank you so much. Thanks be to God! We witnessed miracles the way the Lord performing in our lives. I am not tired of begging your prayers once again.

The first phase of uncertainty and helplessness were over. Even the doctors were amazed the way the pregnancy were going. And all of a sudden, it happened. The cerclage (a stitch which helps prevent the cervix from dialating further) began failing and the cervix is becoming shorter and shorter. On top of it uterus began contracting. Pregnancy is on 22 week, and the baby is not yet viable. They have put her in the hospital until delivery. We have high hopes that Lord will allow this baby to be born in his appointed time, and to enter into His glory through Baptism.

Doctors said plainly that they can't do anything at this time, and they do not have any hope. We have been given an option too. Just walk away from this situation! Is it that simple? God is the author of every life. He is free to do anything for the good of our soul. He could do miracles. "Sanctify yourself, for tomorrow Lord will perform miracles in your life". Our Lord said to Joshua (Joshua 3:5). Today He tells this to me. But how will I achieve holiness? The only way is the narrow path, the path of intense suffering and mortification. As I have offered myself to be a victim soul, He is free to do anything in my life, for the good of many souls.

Well, Mini is undergoing much pain, counting every bit to be an investment for her sanctiication too. When I prayed for her, I saw the back of the crucifix, which is empty! Lord is inviting her to be there for sometime.

I remember one of the Holy Love Messages Our Lady has given to Maureen. "Many suffer the eternal flames of Hell, for no one has been willing to suffer them". Yes, my dear family, it is always easy to talk about the cross, when we are not nailed to it. Let us ask the grace to see Christ's sufferings as our suffering, and our suffering as Christ's suffering. Let His Divine Will be fulfilled in our lives, no matter how much we suffer in this poor world. Let us also proclaim with St Paul, "I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us" (Romans 8:18).

No woman has ever suffered as Our Lady did. Let Our Blessed Virgin intercede for each of us to carry our own crosses. Let us pray for all those who suffer:

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with you. Blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen