"I HAVE ASKED HIM OF THE LORD"

After many years of prayers and sacrifices we were thrilled with joy when realized that God has given us the gift of new life. Praise and worship spontaneously arose from our heart. Lord spoke me through one of my prayer partners that we will be soon blessed with a baby boy and should be named him Samuel, later confirmed when we got the passage of Hanna’s prayer from the Book of Samuel. Last four months were really joyful for both of us especially during the moments of prayers. Having suggested praying for the sanctification of the unborn, many of our friends who are expecting their babies have been shared the scripture passages to be prayed over the unborn. Psalm 139:13-16, Jeremiah 1:15, Gal 1:15 are some of them. We were most certain about the day of conception of our Sam. Offered several rosaries for his sanctification and anointing. We have intensified our prayers for all the unborn babies too. Main prayer intentions these days were an end to abortion and the safety of unborn as well as the gift of children to childless couples. As usual, we have started making rosaries and donating to couples that are going through difficult times all over the world.

During our group prayer, Mini’s praise points were nothing but thanking God for sparing her from morning sickness! It was true that she did not have any sickness or any other early pregnancy related discomforts. Pregnancy was so cool. Our joy turned another dimension when you, Sam started kicking your mom so early especially during praise and worship session of our family prayers and during the sacrifice of the Holy Eucharist. You have been consecrated every day to the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus through the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

In the meantime, we were anticipating, marking the calendars, making travel plans, your Baptism and many like things. However, it was obvious that you didn’t want to come to this poor world. While in your mother’s womb you realized that you got a loving Father in Heaven, and a Blessed Mother too, to spend your eternity. We are sure you must have asked this to your Lord God. And Lord who is so fond of babies, especially the unborn, really granted your petition. We realized later that we are unworthy to raise such saints in earth. And Dearest Sam, the way you came out of your mother’s womb were also amazing, without causing any hurt to your mom. And you were alive!

Your favorite Scripture passage, the Jeremiah 1:15 we read for you everyday, really became flesh in your life. “I have sanctified you before you were born”. You were Baptised in “the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit” soon after your birth. We will always cherish in our memory all the things happened after. The way the doctors and nurses cared for you. Although you were only 85 grams and 8 inches long, you have got the dignity of a human being. This is so remarkable in a world that they think that a baby becomes a human only after nine months of pregnancy and subsequent birth!

Although you have left your mom’s womb, you have left inerasable scar in her heart. She received Jesus in the Holy Communion for you too and the Holy trinity dwelled in your heart every day. After two days of hospital stay, grieving about your loss, we understood one thing; Lord is running short of Saints and Angels. And you made it Sam! A distant dream we all have.

When we were about to say good-bye to the staff, they also sent their condolences to us. Seems that they aren’t aware of this scripture passage, “ If we live, we live to the Lord; so then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord’s” (Rom 14:8). There were lots of memoirs of you. We liked your beautiful footprints on the card. There were so many beautiful pictures of you. It was so heart breaking to see one of them, Your mom holding your body as the “Pieta”, the broken body of Jesus in Mary’s lap!

Are these all about the emotions and pain of a mom? Not so!

It was my Sam conceived in joy.
It didn’t matter you are with me or not
You are just one tiny life to share – To
raise with hope and love and care.
But now I stand, a father left with
empty hands, not in grief, but in hope
that Lord will send me many beautiful
Angels from Heaven soon!!!!

We extend to you the Blessing of the United Hearts of Jesus and Mary!

Love You so much......Sunny & Mini